I Am Not Qualified to Judge Myself

In 2022, I faced a significant challenge when I had a stroke, followed by a rapid physical decline. As my abilities diminished, I struggled to recognize my worth, which destabilized my bipolar disorder in late 2024. With my bipolar disorder, I often hear multiple voices in my mind, most of which are not constructive. This time, one particular voice told me my life was a failure and devoid of value, which led me to a downward spiral that was halted by a priesthood blessing from Church leaders. Although I stopped spiraling, I still lacked peace. Early one morning, seeking the peace I once knew, I began studying the scriptures and general conference talks, concluding with prayer. After praying, I paused to listen and felt a profound manifestation of God’s love enveloping me, filling me with peace. I was reminded of my worth and our Savior's immense sacrifice to guide me home. I learned that only Jesus Christ is qualified to determine my value. And that I must forgive all offenses, including my own. I realized that any voice telling me I am unloved or worthless is false. It is a lie. We are all loved, and our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ will guide us home if we allow it. I hope and pray to always seek the Spirit's voice calling me home.